Convictions

I'm in the middle of studying for my huge Western Civ. Exam. Eek... more like the beginning though I've studied for over an hour and a half. I don't know how I'm going to cram all of this information into my noodle. :( Osmosis?

Today's chapel was awesome. The speaker talked about how we shouldn't depend on our feelings. Though we have spiritual highs AND lows, we are still in God's hand. What a comforting thought, especially for me. These past couple weeks have been rough. Not really academically, but emotionally. Extreme highs and lows and swings. I don't really understand completely what is going on, but I'm trusting the Lord's leading and I'm depending on prayer. Some major molding is going on and it's out of my control. My ignorance and idiocy hit me hard last night and the Lord's grace really came in full. I desire to live for Christ and bring him glory, but I find it hard in the midst of the world and all the trials and temptations. I really desire to be blind to all that is not pleasing to the Lord so that I might in some way bring Him glory. He is so gracious and I have no idea why he has saved a wretch like me.